I AM Darrell Standing. They are going to take me out and hang me
pretty soon. In the meantime I say my say, and write in these
pages of the other times and places.
After my sentence, I came to spend the rest of my "natural
life" in the prison of San Quentin. I proved incorrigible. An
incorrigible is a terrible human being—at least such is the
connotation of "incorrigible" in prison psychology. I became an
incorrigible because I abhorred waste motion. The prison, like all
prisons, was an affront and a scandal of waste motion. They put
me in the jute mill. The criminality of wastefulness irritated me.
Why should it not? Elimination of waste motion was my specialty.
Before the invention of steam or steam-driven looms, three
thousand years before, I had rotted in prison in old Babylon; and,
trust me, I speak the truth when I say that in that ancient day we
prisoners wove more efficiently on handlooms than did the prisoners
in the steam-powered loom rooms of San Quentin.
The crime of waste was abhorrent. I rebelled. I tried to show
the guards a score or so of more efficient ways. I was reported. I
was given the dungeon and the starvation of light and food. I
emerged and tried to work in the chaos of inefficiency of the loom
rooms. I rebelled. I was given the dungeon plus the strait jacket. I
was spread-eagled, and thumbed-up, and privily beaten by the
stupid guards whose totality of intelligence was only just
sufficient to show them that I was different from them and not so
stupid.
Two years of this witless persecution I endured. It is terrible
for a man to be tied down and gnawed by rats. The stupid brutes
of guards were rats, and they gnawed the intelligence of me,
gnawed all the fines nerves of the quick of me and of the
consciousness of me. And I, who in my past have been a most
valiant fighter, in this present life was no fighter at all. I was a
farmer, an agriculturist, a desk-tied professor, a laboratory slave,
interested only in the soil and the increase of the productiveness
of the soil.
I fought in the Philippines because it was the tradition of the
Standings to fight. I had no aptitude for fighting. It was all too
ridiculous, the introducing of disruptive foreign substances into the
bodies of little black menfolk. It was laughable to behold Science
prostituting all the might of its achievement and the wit of its
inventors to the violent introducing of foreign substances into the
bodies of black folk.
As I say, in obedience to the tradition of the Standings I
went to war and found that I had no aptitude for war. So did my
officers find me out, because they made me a quartermaster's
clerk, and as a clerk at a desk I fought through the Spanish-
American War.
So it was not because I was a fighter but because I was a
thinker that I was enraged by the motion wastage of the loom
rooms and was persecuted by the guards into becoming an
"incorrigible." One's brain worked and I was punished for its
working. As I told Warden Atherton, when my incorrigibility had
become so notorious that he had me in on the carpet in his private
office to plead with me; as I told him then:
"It is so absurd, my dear Warden, to think that your rat
throttlers of guards can shake out of my brain the things that are
clear and definite in my brain. The whole organization of this
prison is stupid. You are a politician. You can weave the political
pull of San Francisco saloon men and ward heelers into a position
of graft such as this one you occupy; but you can't weave jute.
Your loom rooms are fifty years behind the times. . . ."
But why continue the tirade? For tirade it was. I showed him
what a fool he was, and as a result he decided that I was a
hopeless incorrigible.
Give a dog a bad name—you know the saw. Very well.
Warden Atherton gave the final sanction to the badness of my
name. I was fair game. More than one convict's dereliction was
shunted off on me, and was paid for by me in the dungeon on
bread and water, or in being triced up by the thumbs on my
tiptoes for long hours, each hour of which was longer than the
memory of any life I have ever lived.
Intelligent men are cruel. Stupid men are monstrously cruel.
The guards and the men over me, from the warden down, were
stupid monsters. Listen, and you shall learn what they did to me.
There was a poet in the prison, a convict, a weak-chinned, broad-
browed degenerate poet. He was a forger. He was a coward. He
was a snitcher. He was a stool—strange words for a professor
of agronomics to use in writing, but a professor of agronomics
may well learn strange words when pent in prison for the term of
his natural life.
This poet-forger's name was Cecil Winwood. He had had
prior convictions, and yet, because he was a sniveling cur of a
yellow dog, his last sentence had been only for seven years.
Good credits would materially reduce this time. My time was life.
Yet this miserable degenerate, in order to gain several short
years of liberty for himself, succeeded in adding a fair portion of
eternity to my own lifetime term.
I shall tell what happened the other way around, for it was
only after a weary period that I learned. This Cecil Winwood, in
order to curry favor with the Captain of the Yard, and thence the
warden, the Prison Directors, the Board of Pardons, and the
Governor of California, framed up a prison break. Now note
three things: (a) Cecil Winwood was so detested by his fellow
convicts that they would not have permitted him to bet an ounce
of Bull Durham on a bedbug race—and bedbug racing was a
great sport with the convicts; (b) I was the dog that had been
given a bad name; (c) for his frame-up, Cecil Winwood needed
the dogs with bad names, the lifetimers, the desperate ones, the
incorrigibles.
But the lifers detested Cecil Windwood and, when he
approached them with his plan of a wholesale prison break, they
laughed at him and turned him away with curses for the stool that
he was. But he fooled them in the end, forty of the bitterestwise
ones in the pen. He approached them again and again. He told of
his power in the prison by virtue of his being trusty in the warden's
office, and because of the fact that he had the run of the
dispensary.
"Show me," said Long Bill Hodge, a mountaineer doing life
for train robbery, and whose whole soul for years had been bent
on escaping in order to kill the companion in robbery who had
turned state's evidence on him.
Cecil Winwood accepted the test. He claimed that he could
dope the guards the night of the break.
"Talk is cheap," said Long Bill Hodge. "What we want is the
goods. Dope one of the guards tonight. There's Barnum. He's no
good. He beat up that crazy Chink yesterday in Bughouse Alley . . .
when he was off duty, too. He's on the night watch. Dope him
tonight an' make him lose his job. Show me, and we'll talk business
with you."
All this Long Bill told me in the dungeons afterward. Cecil
Windwood demurred against the immediacy of the demonstration.
He claimed that he must have time in which to steal the dope from
the dispensary. They gave him the time, and a week later he
announced that he was ready. Forty hard-bitten lifers waited for
the guard Barnum to go to sleep on his shift. And
Barnum did. He was found asleep, and he was discharged for
sleeping on duty.
Of course, that convinced the lifers. But there was the
Captain of the Yard to convince. To him, daily, Cecil Winwood
was reporting the progress of the break—all fancied and
fabricated in his own imagination. The Captain of the Yard
demanded to be shown. Winwood showed him, and the full details
of the showing I did not learn until a year afterward, so slowly do
the secrets of prison intrigue leak out.
Winwood said that the forty men in the break, in whose
confidence he was, had already such power in the prison that they
were about to begin smuggling in automatic pistols by means of
the guards they had bought up.
"Show me," the Captain of the Yard must have demanded.
And the forger-poet showed him. In the bakery, night work
was a regular thing. One of the convicts, a baker, was on the first
nightshift. He was a stool of the Captain of the Yard, and
Winwood knew it.
"Tonight," he told the captain, "Summerface will bring in a
dozen '44 automatics. On his next time off he'll bring in the
ammunition. But tonight he'll turn the automatics over to me in the
bakery. You've got a good stool there. He'll make you his report
tomorrow."
Now Summerface was a strapping figure of a bucolic guard
who hailed from Humboldt County. He was a simple-minded, good-
natured dolt and not above earning an honest dollar by smuggling
in tobacco for the convicts. On that night, returning from a trip to
San Francisco, he brought in with him fifteen pounds of prime
cigarette tobacco. He had done this before, and delivered the stuff
to Cecil Winwood. So, on that particular night, he, all unwitting,
turned the stuff over to Winwood in the bakery. It was a big, solid,
paper-wrapped bundle of innocent tobacco. The stool baker, from
concealment, saw the package delivered to Windwood and so reported to the Captain of the Yard next morning.
But in the meantime the poet-forger's too-lively imagination
ran away with him. He was guilty of a slip that gave me five
years of solitary confinement and that placed me in this
condemned cell in which I now write. And all the time I knew
nothing about it. I did not even know of the break he had
inveigled the forty lifers into planning. I knew nothing, absolutely
nothing. And the rest knew little. The lifers did not know he was
giving them the cross. The Captain of the Yard did not know that
the cross was being worked on him. Summerface was the most
innocent of all. At the worst, his conscience could have accused
him only of smuggling in some harmless tobacco.
And now to the stupid, silly, melodramatic slip of Cecil
Winwood. Next morning, when he encountered the Captain of
the Yard, he was triumphant. His imagination took the bit in its
teeth.
"Well, the stuff came in all right as you said," the Captain of
the Yard remarked.
"And enough of it to blow half the prison sky high," Winwood
corroborated.
"Enough of what?" the captain demanded.
"Dynamite and detonators," the fool rattled on. "Thirty-five
pounds of it. Your stool saw Summerface pass it over to me."
And right there the Captain of the Yard must have nearly
died. I can actually sympathize with him—thirty-five pounds of
dynamite loose in the prison.
They say that Captain Jamie—that was his nickname—sat
down and held his head in his hands.
"Where is it now?" he cried. "I want it. Take me to it at
once."
And right there Cecil Winwood saw his mistake.
"I planted it," he lied—for he was compelled to lie because,
being merely tobacco in small packages, it was long since
distributed among the convicts along the customary channels.
"Very well," said Captain Jamie, getting himself in hand.
"Lead me to it at once."
But there was no plant of high explosives to lead him to. The
thing did not exist, had never existed save in the imagination of
the wretched Winwood.
In a large prison like San Quentin there are always hiding
places for things. And as Cecil Winwood led Captain Jamie he
must have done some rapid thinking.
As Captain Jamie testified before the Board of Directors,
and as Winwood also testified, on the way to the hiding place
Winwood said that he and I had planted the powder together.
ÄAnd I, just released from five days in the dungeons and
eighty hours in the jacket; I, whom even the stupid guards could
see was too weak to work in the loom room; I, who had been
given the day off to recuperate — from too terrible punishment—
I was named as the one who had helped hide the nonexistent
thirty-five pounds of high explosive!
Winwood led Captain Jamie to the alleged hiding place. Of
course they found no dynamite in it.
"My God!" Winwood lied. "Standing has given me the cross.
He's lifted the plant and stowed it somewhere else."
The Captain of the Yard said more emphatic things than "My
God!" Also, on the spur of the moment but cold-bloodedly, he
took Winwood into his own private office, locked the doors, and
beat him up frightfully—all of which came out before the Board
of Directors. But that was afterward. In the meantime, even
while he took his beating, Winwood swore by the truth of what he
had told.
What was Captain Jamie to do? He was convinced that
thirty-five pounds of dynamite were loose in the prison and that
forty desperate lifers were ready for a break. Oh, he had Summerface
in on the carpet and, although Summerface insisted the
package contained tobacco, Winwood swore it was dynamite and
was believed.
At this stage I enter . . . or, rather, I depart; for they took me
away out of the sunshine and the light of day to the dungeons, and
in the dungeons and in the solitary cells, out of the sunshine and
the light of day, I rotted for five years.
I was puzzled. I had only just been released from the
dungeon, and was lying pain-wracked in my customary cell, when
they took me back to the dungeon.
"Now," said Winwood to Captain Jamie, "though we don't
know where it is, the dynamite is safe. Standing is the only man
who does know, and he can't pass the word out from the
dungeon. The men are ready to make the break. We can catch
them red-handed. It is up to me to set the time. I'll tell them two
o'clock tonight, and tell them that, with the guards doped, I'll
unlock their cells and give them their automatics. If at two o'clock
tonight you don't catch the forty I shall name with their clothes on
and wide awake, then, Captain, you can give me solitary for the
rest of my sentence. And with Standing and the forty tight in the
dungeons, we'll have all the time in the world to locate the
dynamite."
"If we have to tear the prison down stone by stone," Captain
Jamie added valiantly.
That was six years ago. In all the intervening time they have
never found that nonexistent explosive, and they have turned the
prison upside down a thousand times in searching for it.
Nevertheless, to his last day in office Warden Atherton believed
in the existence of that dynamite. Captain Jamie, who is still
Captain of the Yard, believes to this day that the dynamite is
somewhere in the prison. Only yesterday, he came all the way up
from San Quentin to Folsom to make one more effort to get me to
reveal the hiding place. I know he will never breathe easy until
they swing me off.
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